The hell

First of all, what makes you so special? Why do you even think that you deserve me more than anyone else? Seriously, you couldn't handle me on my worst, all you do is put the blame on me. Sure people do make mistakes, but this is just too far don't you think? Yes I can take jokes, but sometimes, even the smallest thing could hurt me so bad. All I do is let it go, why couldn't you?

Yes, I am a quiet type of person, but that doesn't mean I want my head to be stepped on. Look, why don't you give a chance to anyone else who likes you better than I do, I am pretty sure they'd love you as much as I do or maybe more than me, its just that I've done my job, now its time for me to go and put our memories to rest, it was a good memory for us to remember. Yes I admit, I like being with you, but sometimes, you have to let go the person you love just for them to be happy. Maybe God has better plan for us.

My 2nd thought was pathetic

And I thought by giving a chance to exes is a good thing, but now I know that it is not and I was right all the time. I don't have any business with them anymore, so why should I turn my back to them? I've betrayed myself far more than enough, I am so ashamed of myself.

Enough is enough don't you think? I've had enough, I am so freaking tired of everything, well I don't hate my ex, but its just that I don't want any feelings towards them anymore. I've always been bad at suppressing my feelings or whatever, since my honesty kicks my ass so hard.

Its always been my time to lay low, and chill. 2011 been such a bitch, everything seemed so hard. I need to get a vacation, or at least a life, a simple life. Whatever it is, I think its time for me to put my 2nd thought to a rest. I should have never do something so stupid like this.