What the..

I'm so confused right now, I don't know if this is right? I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I want, it feels like I've accomplished my targets, but I feel like I am missing something. Something deep inside me. What was it? Where it went wrong? Where it went?

I can't control my self-pride, my anger, my everything. I'm such a mess, build me and put me back when I'm at my best. This is my worst, it'll take time for me to recover, maybe I did recovered, but not totally recovered, there is something just doesn't seem right. Maybe I need my time being alone? Maybe I need someone who could guide me back to where I'm at my best? I don't know.

I am stupid for taking everything for granted, life isn't always that easy. Now I know what's the meaning of life and I can sum it up; it goes on. If everything doesn't turned out the way I planned, I am so screwed. A secret? Nahh, soon.